Sacred Outer Space

My sacred space doesn't truly exist. I have been moved from house to house so frequently that I have made no connections with specific areas and whatnot. Also my family is strange and disjointed so I could never truly connect to anyone in it and call them my sacred space. My relationships with partners and even friends are often semi-volatile and don't often end up being anything I can really retreat to either. My true sacred space is intellectual and abstract thought that betters who I am and my understanding of the world around me. Sure, sometimes I find it comfortable to spill my guts out to a friend or companion, but I'm more at peace with myself and my life when I can shut down everything around me and talk about the mathematics that makes everything work in the amazing universe that we call home.

It's very peaceful to actually think about how small and insignificant each person is to the whole of all being, yet it's beautiful to see how one person can change the consequences of all people, and life as we know it. Math and Physics are fun to me, but the real fun is trying to describe things that happen in the real world in all variables and seeing the elegance of the universe. I like to learn all of the theories, old and new, that try and connect everything in the universe so I can see how people have progressed. Connecting things which may seem very counter-intuitive to scientific thought and progression to the very same science it rejects or excluded accidentally is fun too, because you can see where either science breaks down and we've reached a limit or you can see where the text/idea breaks down and needs to be considered non-literal or multi-meaningful.

Anyone could find some tranquility (or even spirituality) in Math and Science if he or she were to look hard enough. Ask the big questions, the ones with variables that can be used to model any specific thing, and you'll soon see the beauty and magic of the modeling power of mathematics. Apply those models to the real world or universe and you'll see that they work or they do not work, and that is the beauty of physics I can escape to. Just remember the next time you are feeling down that there are billions of hydrogen molecules under a lot more pressure than you are on the sun and that anyone can be the one person to figure out the mysteries of the universe and change life as we know it, forever.